Posts tagged "life with JRDN"

“Who the Fuck Am I?” A Word on Self Doubt

This blog—which has become an intro to what might as well be my future best selling novel— has turned three today. Three years of words, ideas, heartbreaks, and energy all compiled onto this thing called the internet. But instead of celebrating, I'm overwhelmed. Nowadays, I'm not even sure if I am even a writer. I grapple with the idea of if this is what I even want to do anymore....

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The Time is Now: My Goals for 2018

It's been a while since I've written and as many of you know, I'm very transparent on my blog. I've had words sitting on my chest all year that I just haven't gotten out. I didn't make the time to do so. 2017 was a very transformative year for me. I've been every person that I thought I hated and could never be. I've seen sides of myself that made...

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New Person, Same Old Mistakes

History does not change, it only repeats itself. So when he texted me, I shouldn't have responded. When he expressed wanting to see me, I shouldn't have agreed. I knew better. We had damn near eight years of history between us and it always ended the same exact way. I was running late— 20 minutes to be exact, but it was worth it. I looked good. My chest bounced up...

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An Ode to the Men of My Past, Present, and Future As Told By “4:44”

I am the girl whose first introduction into Hip-Hop was sneaking her step-father's copy of Reasonable Doubt in her book bag to play "Dead Presidents II" on her CD player on her way to school.  I am the girl who begged her mother for a pair of S Dot Carters the moment they dropped. I am the girl who in 2004 watched in amazement as Hov tore down Madison Square...

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For Girls Who Considered Hot Yoga When The Treadmill Wasn’t Enough

They say summer bodies are made in the winter. But, if you're anything like me, you probably haven't started working out...AT ALL. Working out is one of my least favorite things to do. But, in a time where we could use a mental escape— and let's face it, I'm trying to stunt on the gram in a bikini in Cuba real soon— I've found solace in hot yoga. Hot Yoga...

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Everything I’m Manifesting in 2017…So Far

1. I will get a job that I want, not one I need. Since my time at WatchLOUD is coming to an end, I've been running into many people and companies who want to work, but don't want to pay. While I could easily work for clout, exposure, and a ton of other things that won't pay bills and go back to hustling three paying jobs just to maintain... I...

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Personal Peace: Learning to Let It Go…Again

Sometimes, we keep people in our lives for longer than they need to be. I'll never understand why. Maybe, it's because we've become too comfortable. Or maybe, it's because we're too lazy or scared to start over with someone new. As a person who has constantly tried to fix relationships that are hanging on by a thread, I've recently learned to just let it go... He said, "You'll never find anyone better...

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Loving All of Me: My Journey to Body Positivity & Self Love

It's taken me almost 24 years to learn how to love my body. When I was younger, I'd rush home from school for my daily dose of TRL followed by 106 & Park.  My eyes would be glued to the TV as I tried to mimic the latest dance moves and hairstyles. Around 13, I became obsessed with the video model aesthetic. I studied video vixens. Everything from their perfect...

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Should’ve, Would’ve, Could’ve: Stop Romanticizing a What If

They say your 20s are a time to learn all about yourself. Your great qualities, your shitty ones, your insecurities, everything. I think I'm finally at the point in my life where I'm recognizing everything about myself. I'm learning to become more open and honest with myself.  Last night at the Black Girl Magik workshop, I opened up about my biggest fault: romanticizing what could be. There have been way too many instances where I've...

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The Year of The L’s: The Things I’ve Learned in 2015

This year is (finally) coming to a close. While randomly reflecting on my year, I realized that I've actually grown. Here are few lessons I learned this year that I wanted to share. 1. Don't fall in love with someone who makes you feel as if loving you is a chore. You deserve better than that. 2. Step outside your comfort zone: I'm a very awkward girl. Sometimes doing things out...

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